Friday, July 31, 2009

What a Difference ADE makes!! :(

Last night, my favorite Male dancer on SYTYCD was sent home!! I wanted him to win & i believe he should have! He is such a powerful dancer; a gentle giant and a quiet storm! However, the bittersweet surprise was seeing his long time partner on the show, Melissa, SYTYCD's first classical ballerina contestant, go home as well! They were the ones to dance one of my favorite pieces on the show: THIS WOMAN'S WORK (the cancer tribute) which is also posted to view in a previous blog. Here's ADE's solo performance....What a great Living, breathing, inspirational "piece" of ART he is! :)

Ade Obayomi, 20, is a contemporary dancer/college student from Chandler, AZ. Ade, who now lives in Orange County, CA, attending Chapman University as a dance student, has performed at Radio City Music Hall.

Missed Signals

when there's Traffic
we tend to wait for the signs
and it is true
green means GO
yellow means SLOW
but could it hurt to follow your heart
-Shandra e.

Hindsight Bias

and so I must remember that once upon a time
i made you smile
you made me laugh
and at one point we were happy
-Shandra e.

Windows of Opportunity

and i realize that love lost is mere love
misplaced and somewhere hidden
it is still in sight
when the heart freezes over with blurried visions of what was
but what is will often reflect within my eyes lost your chance.
-Shandra e.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Love's a Mess

and i realize that the seasons have changed
but If i let go
i'll have to admit that i fell just like the rest of 'em
so i'll hold on just a little while longer
i'll appear to be just a little bit stronger
but in the end
we all meet up in the pile
-Shandra e.

*LOVE for low wages....

♥ Just for future reference, don’t use words like “love” anymore. It’s a very sensitive word and it wears out quickly. Romeo barely says it, but John Hinckley filled up a whole journal with it. To put it into your terms, it’s a currency that’s easily devalued. Pretty soon you’re saying it whenever you hang up the phone or whenever you leave. It turns into an apology. Then it’s an excuse. Some a-holes want it to be a bulletproof vest: don’t hate me; I love you. But mostly it just means–more. More, more–give me something more. A couple of years from now, when you’re on your own completely, if you really fall in love, if it really comes to that–and I pity you if it does–you have to look right down into the black of her eyes, right down into the emptiness in there and feel everything, absolutely everything she needs and you have to be willing to drown in it, Kevin. You’d have to want to be crushed, buried alive. Because that’s what real love feels like–choking. They used to bury some women in their wedding dresses, you know. I thought it was because all those husbands were too cheap to spring for another gown, but now it makes sense: love is your first foot in the grave. That’s why the second most abused word is “forever”.
-Peter Craig, Hot Plastic
"...coldest story ever told, somewhere Far along this road, he lost his a woman so heartless"! .....Has to be the only explanation for a statement so strong right??? that 1st line had me 'stuck' like wow...who hurt you?!
lol...& i could never be this cynical!! However, i found a few things said to be..."interesting"!

Now I aint Sayin' She a Gold Digger....

Okay, so I Love Men: Intelligent, somewhat cocky (confident), God-fearing, successful, sexy MEN! And because I am a Woman...I'm not interested in a man (or little boy for that matter) without A PLAN! See, a Gold diggin' woman makes a man wish he had a prenup after she goes after all he has....a gold diggin' woman sizes a man's pants....for His wallet! A gold diggin' woman sways in with her expectations high and her standards low: she's in it for herself & she can care less whether her man feels like a "MAN", she simply wants to feel like a woman & the only way she can do so is by being manipulative, conniving and two-faced, as if she's somehow trying to get vengeance on every serpent in her life full of lies and trickery?! This woman will play games with a man's heart AND his money with no remorse and quite frankly....this "woman" is merely a little girl screaming in defense; "something is wrong"?!!

When a woman has reached a certain point in life, when her Independence compels her to depend on a man for his love and support...when this very dependence does not threaten, but enlightens her...She doesn't seek for or respond to any man simply because he is a "Man" & she's not so gullible or flattered to invest her time in someone just because he feels she is worth his....This woman is not easily impressed nor is she walking around with a chip on her shoulders!

However, she is a GOAL digger! She wants to know what a man has to offer beyond a rhythm and stroke, beyond promises of curled toes and falsetto notes....& she definitely isn't stuck on his credit score, car and house size, or job status...However some of these things should matter for both man & woman!

More than anything, she is interested in his Goals and the drive in which he operates to achieve his goals. Is he one who talks the talk & walk the walk; can he make a plan & follow through?!

A gold digger will have a structured criteria of "what a man should be; what he should have, etc", but a Goal digger realizes that a man with a plan is not exclusively the CEO of a major company or a billionaire. A man with a plan can be a humble street sweeper with stability and a means of living up to HIS OWN potential (not a picky woman's "standards")! A Goal digger is a woman so concerned with a man's plan because for so long she has been deriving her own....she simply wants what she deserves....

Monday, July 27, 2009

My Life According To Michael Jackson..Music Game

Choose ONE artist and use their songs to answer the following questions!! You can't use my pick....

....Pick Your Artist: Michael Jackson (wanted to do Lauryn Hill, but I know waaay more MJ songs!! lol...this is not a 'mere' MJ blog in disguise)

Are you a male or female? : Liberian girl
Describe yourself: P.Y.T pretty young thing

How do you feel: Bad & Dangerous x-)

Describe where you currently live: "Earth Song" eesh...let's "Heal The World"=/

If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Got to be THERE

Your favorite form of transportation: wings of my love

Your best friend is: music and me =)

Your favorite color is: Black....or White ...(doesn't matter);-p

What's the weather like: Aint No sunshine

Favorite time of the day: Break of Dawn

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: Greatest Show On Earth (loves the song)

What is life to you: off the wall

Your relationships: in the closet

Your fear: SCREAM! ;-o

What is the best advice you have to give?: Keep the faith and Smile

If you could change your name, you would change it to: MARIA

Thought for the Day: Man in The Mirror (...if you wanna make the world a better place, take a look at ya self & then make a CHANGE)

How I would like to die: Heaven can wait...

My soul's present condition: Workin' Day & Night

...because so many of you are being tagged by others, I'd say if you haven't already, GO FOR IT!!! I Tag YOU...anyone who wants to do it!! lol

Thursday, July 23, 2009

SYTYCD:This Woman's Work..*fighting breast Cancer

Ade and Melissa perform a breathtakingly beautiful dance about a woman fighting and dealing with Breast-cancer! He is my favorite male dancer of the season and Together they are the perfect pair!!!! I'm so glad they reunited for this piece by Choreographer Tyce!!! ...AND LOVE MY MAXWELL so the song choice was Perfect!

If you don't watch this are missing out on some of the most beautiful depictions of TRUE ART!!!! Dance is interpreted in a way not quite seen before & i just adore the way these two dancers gave such raw have to youtube the longer version...the judges were all in Tears (esp. Mia Michaels!!) and the audience was emotional as well. Truly Beautiful!!

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Def Poetry's Shihan...

"...and way too much, my words weigh Too Much"!!

might've been the dopest line in there!!! I loved him On "def Poetry"!! & while I love him, his delivery was better than his actual writing for this particular poem, but he's a great writer nonetheless!!

Monday, July 20, 2009

Whose Line is it Anyway: "Is it Over"

Is it Over?!

...Is It...OVER?! ;`{

....Is it Over???

lmbo..guess not!

Is it Over ;-♥

...Is it Over?!?!

"She waved goodbye to past hurts and fears; he waved hello to new hopes & dreams; she screamed at the thought of taking him back & he embraced her in love"'s doesn't matter who speaks the loudest, both actions & words are often heard in different languages ;)


...the misses

If Love is Blind....

....I'm gonna need another pair of glasses?!!

boy: babe, but you have 20/20 vision??

girl: ...i'm in love you fool!

Shandra E.

...the misses

Chris Brown Speaks...

I've been blogging along with others on the whole Rihanna Topic & this is a great apology! He gave NO EXCUSES!!! That's what it's all about...Owning up to your part & moving on!!! He owes us Nothing else & quite frankly he never "owed" us this apology; however, with the fame/fortune he has acquired, his responsibility compelled him to speak out to everyone who has ever believed in him, anyone who is disappointed, etc. This is respectable....

Saturday, July 18, 2009


they say history repeats itself,
Karma promises what goes around must come back around
and even gravity compells what goes up, to come back down
still i have found, one thing escapes it all....
what we lost, we can never re-live
and what we've shared no other can give
we cannot rewind, so i'll remember the time when we fell in love...

Friday, July 17, 2009

Deceiving Drake!!!

[Verse 1:]Deceiving you are the reason thatI don't believe in finding the love that I need and I'm Uncle Phil I switch wifey like every season
So I guess that makes u aunt Viv Until u take from me till the point that u can't give.And when I see u out I pass by it's offensive
But what u expect tho
Kinda direct yo
Cuhz all that dolce and gabana stuff was expensive
I told ya
Mr. Edwards I tried to save your daughter
But she wasn't satisfied with none of the things that I bought her
And wasn't tryna show up none of the places that I brought her
And couldn't utilize none of the things that I taught her
So I was just tryna upgrade you
I ain't ya understudy that tryna upstage you
I was ya other buddy that tried to front page you
Crown you
Get to know the people that surround you
Funny to think that I woulda white gowned you
Now we sit around the studio and clown you
Opps did I let that slip oh my bad did I let that slip
I can't forget that quick
[Hook:]Deceiving (you you you you deceiving)
Deceiving (you you you you are so deceiving)

This song is sooo Dope & so is his way of thinking & writing!! wow, He's Dope for real! And wow...he had to use my last you feel like the song is about you (not good btw!) or perhaps "it could be" if someone else spit it?! funny..

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Thunder & Lightning

a match made in heaven never guarantees a perfect love without pain...we may float upon clouds, but even cloud nine, is bound to rain....

sunny days, everybody loves them
but we would rarely share those moments
and we clashed
you always had a way of showing your true colors
and i always had a lot to say
and for us, love was just that way
...a bunch of noise
still we could stand the rain
so in love, we fell
casting a spell on the universe
universally spelling out love in reverse
how could you be so evil
we were two different people
for years you controlled the story
so i wrote the sequel
so there
we're equal
as Jhene ( would say "this is what happens when one poem leads to the next"
...and still they are all interconnected to the title! Collectively, this symbolizes the constant battle between Thunder & lightning...they may go back & forth, but someone will always have the last words...Lightning Strikes; Thunder rawrs...respectively ;)

Monday, July 13, 2009

here's my piece about my peace....

wow...I am never one to regret things in life and I probably never will. I usually find myself saying what i mean and meaning what i say and really words within themselves are so ambiguous, who besides me could know what i truely mean?! Still, i can look back on things i smiled at before and while i see no reason to smile, I cannot regret what hind sight bias has now brought to light...i can only adore every memory for being a lesson learned. I have no smiles stored away for you, no hugs with scents lodged within my memory and there are no "soft kisses" still felt upon these lips. When i say i am "over you", i would love to clarify! I'm saying, you no longer permeate my heart and that dart once pierced into the inner crevaces of me, has dissipated. I cannot find it nor do i long to search for it. Like the Isley's i have drifted so long on a memory and I remember 'you' no more. I know you no more and i no longer want to. our Love has "pretty wings" and thank God it finally takes it flight away from me. :) I am at peace with the emptiness you left, the fingerprints you smeared because love was a crime, but i am cleared of all charges. those fingerprints cannot be traced back to you because you are not even 'you' anymore! i keep trying to look back searching for moments of hapiness and i cannot find them; you have not given me sonnets and sappy love songs...all i have is crumppled letters and crappy love poems that echo love gone wrong. you have never given me surety
or exclusivity, but love was never exclusively ours and really
"love" was never i am okay.
and for now, this is all i have to say...


"It's Hard Times..just Beat It"...perfect view!!

LMBO....this was tonight's episode of "operation repo"; my brothers Made me watch it & i was not sorry!! the whole thing!!! ;D think he kicked somebody when he found out about MJ???

Seven ate 9....

as we climbed to new heights
i marvelled at the thought of defying gravity
for once we were loving to full capacity
until suddenly the rain begin to pour
drifting back down
four letter words sent us catapulting through a darkened sky
and for the first time i watched the moon cry
as we snatched thunder and lighting apart

I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings no more....

"You know what's wrong with you, Miss Whoever-you-are? You're chicken, you've got no guts. You're afraid to stick out your chin and say, "Okay, life's a fact, people do fall in love, people do belong to eachother, because that's the only chance anybody's got for real happiness." You call yourself a free spirit, a "wild thing," and you're terrified somebody's gonna stick you in a cage. Well baby, you're already in that cage. You built it yourself. And it's not bounded in the west by Tulip, Texas, or in the east by Somali-land. It's wherever you go. Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself."
- Breakfast at tiffany's

Sunday, July 12, 2009

"Can You Hear Me Now"??

...if love is BLIND, it requires the power of WORDS because actions, as loud as they may be, are never heard loud and clear enough!!
*shandra e.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Dirty Money...

red carpet at bet awards ....dirty money
Here's Dawn & Diddy's new "group": "Dirty Money" at the B.E.T awards. Introducing Kalenna....
merely "keeping my fingers crossed" for these guys.
wishing Dawn the best!

Thursday, July 9, 2009

How young is "too young" for MOTHERhood?

One of my friends from high school is awaiting the arrival of her foster son! Mind you, we have since graduated from College and are now young women, but YOUNG nonetheless. I have to admit, i have always wanted to be a foster mom, well not "always", but for quite some time now!! The daycare i went to (yes the one where we watched MJ for countless hours!) was also a foster home to many children of various backgrounds. I would later understand that some of these children were addicted to drugs themselves since birth, and others were abandoned by mothers too strung out on drugs to care, and every once in a while, a child would magically appear because someone suspected abuse within their home, and then without notice they would be gone! And then, there was the twins. The twins were fraternal: a boy and a girl, neglected by their mother because of the shame she had for their disabilities. It's ironic that i have such little patience for my own sisters and brothers, yet when a child is belittled, endangered, abused, neglected, or just overlooked, it breaks my heart!!!! If I had my own place and I cooked like "a mother" lol, i'd probably be a foster mom myself! I can definitely love like a mother, but i just wouldn't want to bring a child in my home without providing a near perfect home for them to reside! So i guess i have a lot to do (like duh, i'm getting but This is something my future/prospective husband would have to definitely be informed of because he would definitely have to "get with the program"!

It's something because now that i think, i have always been this way, even concerning animals. I'm the type who will only buy a puppy or pet from the pound; i don't want to support "breeders" when there are so many puppies who had a home & somehow lost it; it breaks my heart!!Still those house bred puppies will someday end up in the pound as well...

I swear i'm the hardest softy you'll meet!! And i'd even consider being a foster mom to teens, just to help them focus in school, make 'everything' of themselves, and overcome their circumstances! I have overcome so much and i suppose more than anything i want to see people thrive when the whole world is simply "crossing their fingers"! I believe in these kind of people and for whatever reason, God gave me a heart for them! Hence, my ongoing journey in becoming a Psychologist....

I just had a talk with my mom and she said she always wanted to do it as well...NO SURPRISE since she had EIGHT (technically 9) of her own!!! She thinks young people shouldn't be allowed, but it's a NEW TIME, babies are dying, being found in trash cans and river banks...& while we wait till willing "mothers" grow up, so many babies never will!

"Enough Said".....

because you don't deserve my response,
I won't accept your excuse
and instead of slipping the noose around my precious love
I've decided to kill the NOISE.


...or maybe it's just the Problem!

You're My Addiction...

Watch the Entire Dance!!! Also watch the intro before the dance....They happen to be dancing to one of my Favorite songs 'GRAVITY' by Sara Bareiles!!!

WOW...did you see that sinister grin he had at the end of the routine: as if he only let her go because he knew she'd come right back!!! MAN...I wish i would've (professionally)nurtured my love for dance when i was a i can only Admire it... dance is a form of art that moves and i have always been a lover of ART.

Mia Michaels choreographed this piece; she's amazing!! If you don't watch this show (SO You Think You Can Dance) you should :)

Never Again.

wow...I never though i'd have an Ode to pain

but as i sit here, being charmed by "purple rain"

I realize you were never my prince

and ever since i decided to take back the remnants of my heart

the silence has never screamed so loud

and as this rain falls fresh from clouds

nine lives have come to an end

eight years of being just friends

i should've known back then

when seven numbers showed up on my phone

telling me that six years, wasted and gone, meant i'd spend two more alone

trying to figure out, how you could do me so wrong

as if my five fingers didn't egg you on

i played my part, gave you my heart, abusing three small words

gave you two big promises

one you never heard

still my Ode to pain lives in Ten letters: two words...


*(old post; still valid)

Wednesday, July 8, 2009



..not a fan of mess..

Brandy Wanna Be Startin Somethin'

I Love her...And WE All Love Michael!!! lol..

Sunday, July 5, 2009

I Second That Emotion!

Maybe you want to give me kisses sweet
But only for one night with no repeat
Maybe you'd go away and never call
And a taste of honey is worse than none at all (oh little girl)

(chorus) Oh little girl in that case I don't want no part
I do believe that that would only break my heart
Oh, but if you feel like loving me if you got the notion
I second that emotion
Said, if you feel like giving me a lifetime of devotion I second that emotion

Maybe you think that love would tie you down
You ain't got the time to hang around
Maybe you think that love was made for fools
So it makes you wise to break the rules

(chorus) Maybe you want to give me kisses sweet
But only for one night with no repeat
Maybe you'd go away and never call
And a taste of honey is worse than none at all (oh little girl)

(chorus) Maybe you think that love would tie you down
You ain't got the time to hang around
Maybe you think that love was made for fools
So it makes you wise to break the rules...

but if you feel like loving me, if you got the notion
I second that emotion

By: The Great Smokey Robinson!!
Happens to be one of my favorite songwriters!

lol...after reading a great blog "WEAK" by STARZ
this song is on my mind!!

he Loves me...he Loves me Not...

I decided i'd rather not play your little games
and while the feild of love is full of flowers
the sun is blinding
the weather changes and soon i'd wish i never pulled away my worth
so, screw the games
this speech is so unrehearsed
and still i can't help, but spit my verse
"Love is blind, it'll take over your mind
and what you think is love
is truly NOT
you need to elevate and find"...
Real Love: would never leave me with NOTHING
so why should i waste this perfectly beautiful flower

*California Love

Like Seasons we change
Love, naw…it stays the same
I'm talking winters never too cold
Trees, planted, but never too old
Love is golden sunshine beholding everything we've accomplished
Then comes spring, bringing new things
Rain, we can stand it
Flowers and candy
Never empty handed
That Romantic California Love
Things arctic lovers only dream of
Yet we stay koo
Never too hot or too cold, never too rough or too smooth
Love's a game, we break all the rules
Then comes school
We back in session,
Flipping page after page love's a long life lesson
Just don't know if we passing or failing???
My heart's so big, but my brain keeps swelling
Dwelling on past scenarios
And like the trees we sway
Like the leaves on the ground
We just couldn't stay
When nature calls you run and cover
Love once so high now falling under
Streaks of lightning bolts and sudden thunder
Winter's back again, still it's never too cold
Trees, planted, but never too old
It's a California love
Yep our love is golden sunshine beholding all the things we've accomplished
But if I'm completely honest
What's love without real seasons,
Or answers with no reasons
Always a new sky, but it's the same o' shade
Love without seasons??
That's a masquerade
Love's reduced to a game, we've just been played
And it's slightly chilling to even think this way
So back to hot hot summers
Planting seeds down under
Hoping things grow strong, but we could only wonder….


if you're never fully dressed without a smile

i've been walking around butt naked for quite a while

moping and wearing frowns like it's in style

but to find a pot of happiness, i'd walk the miles

dripping tears unreal, straight snatched from crocodiles

swimming in lakes of sorrow, until NOW....

...i'm happy :)

Glass House

So hard yet fragile…
Your glare is piercing.

When you're empty you reveal your need for me

So translucent and open
So reflective
And it is then we are able to see
Without the things you put on and put in
Without the lies I believe in YOU

You are disguised and overlooked
But what would happen if I took a step closer

I reach out to touch
When you break you cut
so who dares to go bare before you?


I see your walls and your frame
I see your hurt and your shame
you are not so hard after all

I see your past and your present
A glimpse of our acquiescence
And I long to be your stain…

I look and through you
I see myself
I look through and in you
I see such wealth of LOVE
I see dreams and things unheard of…

You are not so empty after all

Full of air
I breathe you in
So who dares to knock on glass?
I belong within so who cares if I never asked

Even if you're full
My residue remains
A piece of ME on your windowpanes

I see your walls and your frame
I see your hurt and your shame
You are not so hard after all…

de ja vu

.........haven't chu been here before

why are you baCk

the scenary...the whole act...

iTz all been done before

yet you're blocking destiny

standing still when you should be moving forward

you're HERE


haven't you cried tOo many tears

have you not waisted enough of your time



you already know the script


itz not good

so farewell

no welcoming sorrow back

can you hear me

don't you get it

or is there something here you lack....

and what you should ask


WARNING: Things are NOT CLOSER than they appear; I'M OVER IT!

if you stay looking in your rear view'll have a head-on collision with what's yet to come....check your rear-view, but change Lanes!!

the oughta learn from it! ;)


I hold in my hands the fragments and pieces of us,
like shattered glass, scattered across the floor
we are without cohesion yet still we stick together
without error or success
held tight between reality and a dream world

Sometimes, It's not about what's's about the condition
of everything there....

Playing Games...

....because skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Not "That Girl"....

I hope that you're the one
if not, You Are the Prototype.....

well aint that Some Protypical mess

This Video "cuts up":

And The Award Goes TO...

Wow...I was just nominated for a blog award & i'm so happy! lol...and caught off guard??! but first i want to thank God, my momma, my computer to whom i owe it all, lol...and last but certainly not Least, THANK YOU to Chymere ( ) for having a great blog herself & for nominating ME!! :)