Sunday, January 24, 2010

Week 4:Make a Wish....

yesterday morning, i woke up early, with intentions of catching 'The Book of Eli" at a matinee price. I wanted to spend my Saturday alone, yet productively pampering me (at a discounted price!) but plans were changed...

The first thing i did was grab my phone to check the time and i noticed i had two unread texts. The previous night, my granny and my cousin both went into the hospital for different reasons so i was reluctant to read them....I made an obvious wish "God let granny be ok"; and it came true....but my cousin was the young one, the father with growing sons, the deacon at my church. And he was the one who died. On the other hand my Granny is just fine and she's back home with my grandpa! So I'm happy, but it's bitter sweet you know....i just wish they both could've had the same happy outcome?! My granny went in for chest pains and came out fine while my cousin went in because he simply felt sick...yet he had a heart attack and passed away at the the mere age of 42. My family is's confusing....
and emotions are mixed.....
I wouldn't trade my Granny for anything/anyone in the world!
I just wish my cousin was still alive...
he passed away (yesterday) on his mom's birthday and today his oldest son turned 21...
what wishes are they left to make????

They say to be absent from the body is to be present with The Lord. There's a spiritual roll-call going on Right now; And i believe if i was to eaves drop on Heaven, i'd hear Cousin Sam say HERE! :)
and still there is PEACE in it all.

Shandra e.

Friday, January 22, 2010

TEAM CONAN (O'Brian)!!!!

After resigning from his position as The Tonight Show host, Jay Leno's job was the perfect promotion for fellow NBC host Conan O'Brian!! However, now that Jay's "experimental" late night talk show has plummeted, the "Indian Giver" wants his job back!!!

I feel sooo bad for Conzy! (The Rock gave him that name yrs. back! lol)...My sister & I would watch him back in our High School days and he 's been a late night "must-have" ever since! It's sad because he was so excited to take part in the legendary 'Tonight Show' line-up after Jay who succeeded Johny Carson, but now...after a mere few months, his stint is already OVER!

Poor Conzy! hopefully he finds a home soon and perhaps the $34 million he won in the settlement, for the breached contract, will cheer him up these next few (jobless) weeks!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010


And when your heart seems broken beyond repair...

allow GOD to give you a NEW one!

shandra e.

Should've smelled the coffee...

I made my bed, but i refuse to lay in it


So there's no reason I should stay in it!

Although I'm guilty...

for allowing you to play in it....

-Shandra e.
common idiom: wake up and smell the coffee
to pay attention and do something about a situation

Paintings for the Blind....

My intent was never to brush-stroke your ego.
And I never meant to paint love with mere words.
But all was spent on what was never heard and we were too blind to see that actions could never drown out the scream of a thousand lies.

-Shandra e.

Monday, January 11, 2010

Week 3/365

My first day back to work!! To no surprise the class was More than HYPER-ACTIVE and it seemed as though we were back to the if certain habits were never dropped?! So while the kids ran around the room yelling....I watched the clock and finally exhaled the moment the bell rang!

...and at the end of the day, when i go home...before i slip out of my clothes, shower, or go to bed...I have to SMILE because no matter what, i love those kids and i love my job!
it's funny how perspective changes....and to think, i never imagined i'd LOVE/ADORE kids...*sigh, it's amazing how much joy a child can bring...their quirky little sayings, their obnoxious, attention seeking Yet irresistible little voices!! lol...i just adore them...:)

Saturday, January 9, 2010

This is Not Another Girl Meets Boy

La Roux - I’m Not Your Toy
Love, love is like a stubborn youth
That you’d rather just deny
I’m walking on a broken roof
While I’m looking at the sky

It’s all false love and affection
You don’t want me
You just like the attention

Yes it’s all false love and affection
You don’t like me
You just want the attention

I’m not your toy
This isn’t another girl meets boy x2

Love, love hides in a smoky light
And I can never find the truth
Boy, your touches leave me mystified
And I wish I could believe in you

Yes it’s all false love and affection
You don’t want me
You just like the attention
Yes it’s all false love and affection
You don’t like me
You just want the attention

I’m not your toy
This isn’t another girl meets boy x3

It’s all false love and affection
You don’t want me
You just like the attention
Yes it’s all false love and affection
You don’t like me
You just want the attention

I’m not your toy
This isn’t another girl meets boy x4

I love this song!!! We play it OUT at my job all thee time! I've been meaning to post it forever!

Ollusions: Omarion's New Album Review...

The new album, Ollusions, is set to be released 1-12-10, but the preview can be heard on myspace (and other sites i'm sure) but yeah, I've definitely concluded that I MUST be seeing things cuz I sure aint hearing nothing worth buying??!! So i give it to 'em for coming up with a perfect album corny as it may be...O-llusions?? i guess....

I don't know how/if the music industry has been accepting of his first two singles "I get it In" & whatever the other one was called...I was totally clueless his career was "back on the move", but I just think he waited too long! Besides, the industry is so hardcore these days; good people are strugglin' to sell records....!!

Overall, there might be two songs in all that others might like??! I'm not too fond of any. Sad to say since i was rooting, even waiting for his i just feel like he should say "Gotcha" & crawl right back under that rock....=/

the bright side is, He looks's all an Ollusion & he really doesn't??! ;p
*shrugs...poor baby, he might sell records & prove me wrong.

note to the eager:

Some people get so caught up in the pace...they take success for some "race" to a 'sloppy' finish....
believe no one will say, "oh took a billion years just to make it here: on top of the world"???
NO...they will say HOW did you do it?

... & you will say: with hard work & dedication...belief in myself!

Shandra e.

Friday, January 8, 2010

note to the hopeful:

Please, don't waste your New Year's resolution on Me

this smile bears nothing more than what you see

and there is no residual love

silence does not signal a problem

...and perhaps i have nothing more to say

so if getting back to what you esteem as "normal" is in the plan...

change it

i moved on and what worked then, could never succeed

it's twenty-ten...

i'm just over it.

-Shandra e.

day EIGHT.DOWN. 357 to go...

Ok so let me start of by saying, I skipped two's true! However, I realized this "everyday aspect" is just not fit for me/my life style....I work two jobs & i get home late, Alot! I don't work tomorrow so hence, i'm here. But still...I might have to re-vamp this thing to a "52 weeks" instead of "365 days"?! lol....I'm Serious....come Sunday i'll be counting by weeks! ;)

Anyhoo...Omg, so EVERYBODY has a Facebook!!! EVEN.....MY GRANNY! lol...yess....that's Her "profile pic" & no my moms wasn't 12 when she had me nor was my granny 15 when she had my moms (my moms was a married, nearly 22 yr. old & granny was in her late 20z when she had my moms...& that's NOT to disrespect young mothers in anyway)!!!! ...I suppose i get my Young face (& my smile) from my granny??! *someone once thought i was 10yrs younger than what i really am!! lol...I was 22 at the time!

.....But noooo, this is Not okay, why is my whole family trying to be on FB?? It was okay when i was connecting with distant cousins, but Granny, uncles, & aunties should not know all aspects of my in how i joke with my friends, etc?! I'll never be caught saying anything "out of conduct", BUT STILL....i'm a "granny-goose" to my Granny (what she calls me)...she don't need to see me any other way!lol....I went ahead & added Granny, But some folks will NOT be added...I still have an uncle "in waiting"! lol...i won't deny any fam, but i sure won't accept 'em all either ;)

Monday, January 4, 2010

day FOUR & FIVE DOWN. 360 to go...

Tonight is the night I'll finally go NATURAL!!! ;D

Day 4: I'm sooo happy/excited! After youtubing & reading so many blogs (shout outs to Sunshine
& Mae!!) I finally decided to give it a try myself!! However, because natural hair is so high maintenance, I'll have to wait until I learn/develop quicker pacing before i can do my hair every morning! I need to be able to wake up & go so that i'll be hitting L.A traffic (heading North. OUCH!) in the morning!! I can't wait though...I'll probably start dibbling/dabbling in February though (*shrugs...least i could do for black history month. lol) But come Summertime, i'll have more than Clothes & hott weather to be excited about, i'll be a Full-Time natural & lovin' it! :)

Day 5 (The Reveal): So after washing my hair last night, i woke up anxious to see the outcome of my efforts! lol... Here's my FIRST TRY at a two-strand-twist-out, let alone anything completely natural (meaning No press or blow dry either...of course no weaves, texturizers or chemicals, but that's an obvious given!)!!! ;o)
Overall, I LOVED the whole experience!! && I LOVED MY HAIR!! It's crazy because i even saw undertones in my skin that have been hiding for a long time! lol...& i must say i adored the low key "salute" to Michael's hair style in the 90z!! He actually used to wear his hair like this for a while! haha...NO i didn't do it on purpose (didn't know my hair would even come out like this?! really i had no expectations?!)

Did I mention I LOVE MY HAIR! ;o)

Sunday, January 3, 2010

day THREE.DOWN 362 to go...

I took this pic, while waiting to exit the freeway...i was headed home. Ironically, this pic captures all of the decisions I am faced with as I approach this New year!

The ONE WAY sign stands out the most. I must move forward!

Do NOT enter: I cannot afford to backtrack...lest I set myself up for a collision with the past! I'm so future focused/goal oriented!!

and then There's the Rear View Mirror: At first glance, you'd think the car in the mirror is behind me, but then you realize it's the very car NEXT TO ME...trying to keep up...trying to stay close....*sigh....And while you may conclude the solution is in Letting Go...also consider, their resolution may be to pick up...right where you left off! So i turned the corner, just like i turned the page. SCREW ALL THE NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS; it's like being in the washing machine, but never getting clean; so you're just tossed about & wrung out..stretched to your capacity..with two options: you could air your dirty laundry OR you could place it in the hands of God...i hear He hand-washes you like no other ;)

-Shandra e.

If This is All a Game...

Saturday, January 2, 2010

day TWO.DOWN. 363 to go...

This morning I woke up and to no surprise...we were having a "Michael Moment"!! So I eagerly joined my sisters on the couch and watched in awe, as if watching for the first dozen times....
It's sad to think, that was the last time the Jackson 5 (+ one) would ever perform on the same stage again. Still what makes it even more significant is that nobody, including the Jackson 5 was aware! They say the only thing we have is now, but even now slowly fades....We have to cherish each moment because the moment we realize the significance, our moment has already passed....

Shandra e.

Friday, January 1, 2010

day ONE. DOWN. 364 to go...

I've been seeing so many posts of "The 365 days Project" and i decided, hey why not?! :) So basically, everyday of 2010, i will be posting a pic of either myself or something within my world! Still, i don't want to just post/take pics "just because", so I have to make sure i have something to say as well....everyday??? lol...this might pose a challenge, but I'm ready for it & i hope I stick to it! ;) So Far, Things are Looking UP for 2010...One Day down...364 more to go!
I just want to live one day at a time, never forsaking the plans of tomorrow, still never taking for granted the fulfillment of TODAY!

Shandra e.