Thursday, October 21, 2010


"...And though we're far apart,
you're always in my heart...."

Shandra e.

Did you watch Oprah today? Lisa Marie Presley was on there speaking /venting all her love, anguish, guilt and remorse for Michael Jackson. And she mentioned that Michael Jackson was the greatest high she had ever been on. I thought that was an interesting way of putting it?! Anyhoo it/the show has me in a funky mood..* a bit nostalgic i guess?! Aint it funny how we always long for the yesterdays, yet we wouldn't trade 'em for the world?! So no, of course i didn't know MJ but at some point we have to stop making this about who knew Michael and realize that at one point, we all loved him!
& i'm just one of a billion who still does. :)
*shrugs...aint no shame.

Monday, October 18, 2010

I'm in LOVE....With YOU!! (*MUST SEE)

The John Lennon Tour Bus loved my Brother's song so much, they decided to produce the video for them!!! My brother wrote the lyrics/sings in the video and my cousin produced the music/plays the guitar in the video!! :D music runs in the family...everybody plays and/or sings...every gathering is either a concert OR an arguement! lol

These boys are DOPE and I'll say so myself ;)

Friday, October 15, 2010

mark of the beast...

The mark of TRUE love&hapiness is unmarked, undefined, and unconditional.
Shandra e.

Monday, October 11, 2010


1. Oh one of my male co-workers is working my nerves!!! =/ Apparently he seems to think we're stuck on some sitcom where "guy meets girl, girl seems disinterested. Guy assumes girl is playing hard to get; Girl runs. Guy loves the chase".....but see he forgot that in reality: Girl files charges!! lol....seriously!! This dude has tried it all, including sparking up random & not-so sweet NOTHINGS, just to get in my ear! He became so persistent the kids started making fun of him! ( i work with special ed...smh)! Kids who weren't in my class knew my name...because of him!!! And then finally i let him have it!! After turning him down, repeatedly....blatantly ignoring/avoiding him.....he still didn't get the point & would still openly compliment me and try to have open conversations at all the wrong times....I finally pulled him to the side and straight forward told him to KEEP IT STRICTLY PROFESSIONAL! I told him to watch how he talks to me, approaches me etc. Dude had the nerve to blame it all on the kids....saying they made it get out of hand....THEN he tried to shake my hand to apologize right....And this FOO EXCEEDS THE "strictly business" time limit, holds my hand way to Long & way too tight AND GONE HAVE THE NERVE TO ASK "You like that huh???"

OK SO HOW ABOUT YOU DON'T WORK WITH SPECIAL KIDS KNOWING GOOD & WELL YOU ARE A SPECIAL KID?!!! I had to re-tell him off cuz obviously he missed the point!!! x-(

...& it worked...for a little while; he stopped speaking altogether; YES!! lol...WRONG...he was just storing up all his thoughts and corny sayings for another time.....Now this Foo works in the same class as me....AND HE LAYS IT ON THICK!!!! tooooo thick! YUCK.....TODAY he actually BEGGED me to go out with him on his birthday!! Did a freaking dance & everything!!!! O.M was a mess yall!! not to mention, it was during our working hours, out in the open....smh...this foo gone make me report him! "talkin bout "aint too proud to beg"...SPAa! well beggars can't be choosers so "How 'bout you DON'T" choose Me!!

2. Have you ever been sitting somewhere and suddenly you turn your head to meet somebody, eye-to-eye, staring right at you??? It's like you FELT it?! ...weird right?! Ok so i was in the car, stopped at a red light, eating some ice cream....head all to the side, just devouring it right...and i turn around to see this dude, lifted out his seat, staring at me with the creepiest smile on his face!!! UHG!!!! And it's like what was he doing...tryna check out my shoes while he at it??? why he looking all up in my car...lifted out his seat & everything??! I was so weirded out!!

And to make things worse...i think i'm scarred...for life! The next morning, i was about to eat breakfast in my car and i stopped to see if anybody was driving on the side of me!! When the coast was clear, i peeled my banana and broke/ate it piece by piece like it was finger food!! smh....HOW 'BOUT YOU DON'T gawk at people while they's rude....a bit perverted....and just disturbing! I'm traumatized =/

3. Ok so after being on my job for a good month....i was walking to the office to sign out when, this guy walks up to me and says "i know you don't know me that well, but we work together so...anyway, can i ask you a question.....*dead pause*........I need $10"??!!!

Ok like WHAT?! The sad thing is he was Dead Serious and i didn't even crack a smile! What in the world...who asks a NEW co-worker for, who TELLS their co-worker they need money...and actually expects to get it??!! HOW BOUT YOU DON'T say "can i ask you something", but then you turn around 'tellin' me what you need"! SPAa!

Then this foo says....ok not a problem...i'll ask Ms, "So & So".....smh...he said the principals name! And do you know he actually asked her!!! THEN HE HAD NERVE TO tell me, "wait right here....i'm comin back...but wait, you hungry....can i take you to eat or something"???

WHAT THE.....With what money...The $10 you wanna borrow from ME???!!!


and i should mention, that was just the 1st time he asked me out......he happens to be the guy from #1....I'm really convinced he's working here on some EOP program (equal opportunity program)...cuz i swear he must be special!
So the next time, somebody has that mischievous look on their face, like they wanna say or do something disturbing...look at him side-ways like "oh i see"....catch 'em mid-thought....stop 'em before they even get to "do the do" & P.O.W! (pearls of wisdom for ya ignorance!)...

Sunday, October 10, 2010

25 b4 25...the countdown begins....

Ok so ON MY BIRTHDAY 9/13....i wore RED lipstick for the 1st time (check!) & I WANTED TO upload the pix, but i guess since they were taken on a different camera, my comp. won't upload them??!! :( still, i've worn it again since then sooo *shrugs....

I love the's a classic look; but a hot PINK actually looks better on me :)
* neck looks ABSENT in this photo!! lol..I need my own real camera! My cell is not makin the cut =/

AND I'm SOOOOO Happy to Check SHAKESPEARE off the list!!!! I went to see HAMLET on Sept. 25th (check!) I had a chance to go back to IRVINE (haven't been since i've graduated college) and saw a few familiar faces! It was a really DRAMATIC good show/cast!

I was happy to realize an old friend of mine actually made the flyer for the play! :)

I wanna see another LIVE play asap!! i got the bug...

When Push Comes to Shove....CHANGE.

*sigh....i was getting soooo annoyed with "lookin so tuff with my Afro puff" look...So Finally, i tried a two-strand twist (took me 5 hrs!! YIKES!)....not to mention the Major Shrinkage!!'s ok....just needed it to rock a twist-out fro' with my 70s ladies dress for church tomorrow! :) Anyhooo...I got carried away & started playing with little brother actually likes the two-strand "as is".....he says i look like a Jamiacan?! lol...i guess....for some reason, everytime i've had front bangs, whether it was a weave, my own straight hair (oxymoron right?!), or now these twist....someone ends up calling me an "island girl" or a Jamiacan?! dude swore up & down i was from de' islands! ha! I shoulda/coulda went with it Just cuz he was CUTE! lol....

P.S I wore RED lipstick for the 2nd time today! :)
guess i can check that off thee "25 b4 25" list!
there's a couple things i can check off the list, but that's another post....

Shandra e.

Saturday, October 9, 2010


I'm sure everyone has seen this preview by now, but i watched it again & got excited AGAIN!! lol...I'm in need for something like this & i just love Tyler Perry's I'm excited to see what he does with someone else's work for a change! This is the FIRST TIME He'll be doing a movie that isn't a product of his previous writings?! ....The Cast is GREAT so hopefully they work well/have chemistry together!



Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Three right turns Right Back to You.

And you have to know that the only thing "sorry" were his excuses.
-Shandra e.

Home-Work for the Soul...

"Your assignment at this point is quite simple. You have 3 P's that you are to start with. They are PRAYER, PRAISE, & PAMPERING.

PRAY for Strength
because you know the He gives might to those who have none!

PRAISE God for survival
because you know that it is by His mercy that you are still here.

PAMPER for Solace!

It is through pampering yourself that you find renewal and comfort against the tragedies of life.

*Light a candle in the bathroom, play some soft notes, and slip into a hot tub with scented bath beads. Lie in the water and raise your hands in the air and PRAISE The GOD that blessed you to be ALIVE! PRAY ABOUT THE THINGS THAT WOULD NORMALLY WORRY YOU" & Refuse to Worry about the things you've let go in Prayer.

-T.D Jakes


Don't just breathe...LIVE!

♥Shandra e.

25 years-to-LIFE...Behind Bars....

"The sting of suffering cannot reach a heart encased in a hard, protective shell---- but then, neither can love. It is a state of emotional purgatory. When you block out the pain, you block out all other feelings as well, and nothing, no one can touch you. Sermons don't touch you. Sex don't touch you. The lover's passionate caresses fail to touch the spot where it really hurts.

They do not know that when they wrap their arms around you, they are not even holding YOU. The real you is cut off from the rest of the world. It's almost as if your heart were wrapped up in a suit of armor. You are safe from pain, safe from anyone hurting you, but YOU ARE ALONE, EMPTY, and UNTOUCHED. You are Making Love, Making Life, making a bubble. You are quarantined by pain and alienated by secret struggles. So close...yet SO remain UNTOUCHED!

What you built for protection has now become a prison, and you are trapped in a silent cell built for One."

excerpt from "THE LADY, HER LOVER, & HER LORD"
I read this book about 2yrs ago and passed it on to my friend! I loved it so much & learned so much, i decided to read it again! It's such an enrichment to read!! I'll keep you guys posted!
...decided i'd let people in on the "gush" this time around...LADIES everywhere should read this book!!

Monday, October 4, 2010

Holding On to Grudges vs. Letting Go & Moving On...

Wow...I never thought I'd hear those words directed towards me...ME? ... holding a grudge?...or even worse, and i quote "A Vendetta...."?! *sigh....Sometimes RELIGIOUS FOLK/Church Folk (big difference between Believers/Christians)...anyhow...sometime people in general misunderstand what it means to FORGIVE! I had someone accuse me of Holding a grudge against a guy just because i refused to ride in his car like everyone else, hopping in for a ride with "benefits". Because refusing to ride in his car, and free-load off of his "drunken generosity" was a "sign" that what he did to me in the past is still effecting me in the present, as if forgiveness means "back to the way things were"??!! HA! Basically, this guy has a status that wavers like the wind...He's up, his finances are up, his EGO is UP so he spends, on everybody, freely....& still when he's down....everything else follows suit.....his self-esteem plummets, his "love" drowns you & him both, his spending becomes wasting, etc.

To sum it all up, he was noooo good.

So I'll dismiss the accusation as ignorance, but still....people tend to hold chains of "guilt" such as these, over Christians' head all thee time! Because being a Christian somehow equates to being a push-over??? Or does it sum up to an unlearned child repeating the same "hand-in-the fire" routine??! I DEMAND TO DIFFER! I can Forgive AND MOVE-ON! Forgiving someone does NOT mean you are obligated to continue a relationship of any sort with them; period.

When I was accused of harboring "unforgiveness", i took it as an insult to my maturity! A little bruised and battered girl returns to "life/love as we know it...even when what we know is proven wrong"! And there is 'a little' girl in every woman, STILL every woman has the power to GROW UP! I didn't yield myself to that mere "car ride" because it would send mixed if everything is okay, as if things can simply go back to the way they were...when really...I'm So over it all....So over it, I refuse to revert back to it!

When we succumb to the routines of the dirty past...we walk around with the stench of yesterday, in today's brand new clothes! We essentially ruin who we have become and really it's never worth it!

"FORWARD.....I'm moving FORWARD...Just ONE Word: FORWARD"!